Totally introverted.

I didn't talk. I didn't explain. All I gave you was nothing. It's not that I don't care. I've been losing people that I hold dear. And I'm sorry I stopped replying. I can't explain. I just feel. I feel it. And what's sad is that this message isn't just for one, but for the many whom I stopped responding to. Even when I want to. Replies overwhelm me, sometimes to the point of drowning. I'm painfully introverted like that.
I'm sorry I stopped replying.

Ps: I hope this gets to your newsfeed. And if you ever read this. Whenever I don't reply, it doesn't mean I care for you less. If you're hurt, sorry.

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