Kenapa begitu banyak aku ungkit tentang masa lalu. Meski aku lebih menghargai masa kini? Mungkin yang aku hargai adalah orang yang hadir dan masih ada ada pada hari ini, Tetapi tidak diri sendiri, Kerana diri aku hari ini tidak ada banyak hal yang aku mampu banggakan. Cuma satu hal yang aku tahu, dan selalu bersyukur. Aku semakin pulih, dari luka yang aku cipta sendiri.
21:06 pm. Salam. There's only left a few days before the war will start (final exam). I'm not ready for this. My first paper will be on this Friday, 9th June 2017. Islamic Banking Operations subject. I hope this semester final exam I will do better even though I still studying last minute (not really last minute actually). At least I still have time to study before and do some revisions and notes. Thank you Adele for your advice, every time the final is around the corner, I wish I can do better in the back few weeks before the exam is start. I hope I am not going to fall asleep during the final exam, since this examinations falls within the month of Ramadan, so I think maybe it will be more better for me. For those who are start their first paper tomorrow, good luck guys ! Special to Adila Ilyana, may you wish will be fulfilled girl. Hope Allah will ease everything for you :) Sincerely, lot of loves. dillazainal.
I'm scared you’re going to leave because that’s what I knows, that’s what’s familiar. That’s what has happened to me in the past. Love and leave. I've been a part of that before. I'm scared you’re going to leave because occasionally my insecurities get the best of me. My insecurities tell me to act in ways I never would, they whisper things I thinks are true, they win the space in my head where happiness once grew and they take it over. My insecurities are the ones telling me I'm not enough, that you will leave me for someone else eventually, someone who’s better for you, someone who’s better than me. I'm scared you’re going to leave because any time something in me life seems to be going right, it suddenly goes wrong. What goes up must come down, and when things go up for me they come back down lower than where we started. I'm scared you’re going to leave because I'm terrified of the way I’ll feel if you do. I knows it won’t be pretty. I knows ...
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