semakin pulih.

Kenapa begitu banyak aku ungkit tentang masa lalu.

Meski aku lebih menghargai masa kini?

Mungkin yang aku hargai adalah orang yang hadir dan masih ada ada pada hari ini,

Tetapi tidak diri sendiri,

Kerana diri aku hari ini tidak ada banyak hal yang aku mampu banggakan.


Cuma satu hal yang aku tahu, dan selalu bersyukur.

Aku semakin pulih, dari luka yang aku cipta sendiri.


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